Insomnia

Jesus christ. It is about... 4:34 AM and I'm still awake. Well my asophogus(the hole that connects your lung to your throat) or whatever/how ever you spell it, feels really dry. Making it hard for me to breathe. Jeez, well I guess I'm going to try and sleep.

my dad.

My cousin Bao came over to visit me and catch up on some things. Haven't really talked to him in about a couple of months but seems like the same Bao to me. We were talking about WoW until some how he brought up the subject of my Dad. He ask me why I don't like him. Thought about about it in a couple of seconds and gave him a one word description. A bitch. He ask me why and I just replied saying he treats me like a dog, talks to me like I'm shit, and talking shit behind my back. I included that I don't plan on getting closer with him and that I honestly wouldn't care about him when I'm 30,40, or maybe even when I'm dead; I still would not care about him. You can say I'm going through a teen phase but I highly doubt it since I was thinking about this since third grade. And I already know he has good intention but the way he expresses is not healthy for the parent and for the child.

Bao didn't know what to say. He waited a couple of minutes and said, "He's your dad, he can do what ever he wants. You still have to listen to him because you're living under his roof." My cousin has a good point about me living under his roof. But even then you don't treat me like shit. It's like owning a dog and feeding him. But you don't treat him well nor do you take care of it other then letting it live here and eat off of you. Eventually the dog will not be loyal and run away to a better enviroment. Same analogy applies here. I'm almost 18, currently looking for a stable job, saving money, and I know my priority. I'll continue this some other time. Getting pissed off for no god damn reason.